It is hard to believe that only 4 days have passed since my return as so many things have happened and even more are waiting to come... The current events are a bit too dramatic to enjoy watching them unfold and, what is more, they tend to wipe out the memories of the previous week. In fact, the circumstances I was exposed to is the last thing I'd wish to forget about, so here comes another piece of writing, sort of a reminder or, rather, a brief record of some experience I underwent then.
First and foremost, I was set entirely free, at last. It happened exactly seven days and nine hours ago... because no official papers could ever leave you free, true freedom is something given from above. And it was. Not as a reward or inducement, not in the least, but as a gift, as the most precious gift and the highest honour. It's beyond me now to imagine how I had managed to keep my head above water without it, though I am not sure I actually had. However, now it's virtually urgent to maintain it. And I am determined to do it.
Funnily enough, though quite predictable on my part because that's how it often happens, my professional interests began to flag and I am really thinking of another trade for a change. I used to love rushing about, shuttling between school and academy and in the meantime flying to other workplaces and making time for study. The naked truth is that such hectic lifestyle holds no appeal for me any longer, probably because I'm constantly growing older (signs), yet it's most likely due to this wonderful feeling of self-assurance and self-confidence. Basically, that's how it should have been from the very beginning... and that's where total freedom stems from... Doing things not because you are forced to and there's no other way out, but because you are willing to do them. No duty, only desire ever since.... Ha! that sounds a bit of self-indulgent and self-absorbed but it isn't. The real nitty-gritty is to wish proper things
well, sleepy as usual.... off to bed