I knew it would be this way, it had always been before, and yet I did it...

I wonder how other people can manage it... perhaps they don't feel it that way... perhaps it's me who is not normal... does it exactly mean being shy?.. I don't know... It's the sense of doing something wrong, something that must never be done that hurts... It feels like something very precious is now in ruins, and can never be restored... Something precious inside myself... Anyway, it'll never be the same now...

Longing to be sheltered...




ps. should every account be deleted or locked, I wonder?..
Is it the right time for farewell letters?