What I really didn't like is the feeling of being examined... The most fair reply could be: "Then watch your mouth and stay away from people, otherwise people would examine you now and then". It's hard to argue, yet knowing that other people might examine you (or might not) and being told about what was found inside is not the same
I feel like keeping off some personal questions, at least I know I should have been more continual at it. I promise I will.

Feeling sad or upset or stressed can't be negative if the person reflects on what is happening or has happened, trying to learn something out of it. It would be a very dull world if people could be always happy and joyful.

Feeling like a little child might be considered sort of dreaming: never know why it comes and where it goes. Anyway, it has nothing to do with real life

Actually I don't like the word 'responsibility'. It reminds me of some law which can't be broken. I'd better use 'LOVE' instead.



my eyes are closing and I don't care if there are any errors or typos


ps one more thing.... I do blame my f-in-l, because other people were brought up in those surroundings, and not all of them are now what he is. Then it's a matter of a personal choice as well, not only the cultural background.