
I feel like keeping off some personal questions, at least I know I should have been more continual at it. I promise I will.
Feeling sad or upset or stressed can't be negative if the person reflects on what is happening or has happened, trying to learn something out of it. It would be a very dull world if people could be always happy and joyful.
Feeling like a little child might be considered sort of dreaming: never know why it comes and where it goes. Anyway, it has nothing to do with real life

Actually I don't like the word 'responsibility'. It reminds me of some law which can't be broken. I'd better use 'LOVE' instead.
my eyes are closing


ps one more thing.... I do blame my f-in-l, because other people were brought up in those surroundings, and not all of them are now what he is. Then it's a matter of a personal choice as well, not only the cultural background.